I think that sometimes I forget how hard it is to be in a long distance relationship.
Right now I would give anything in the world to live in Washington. It can get really hard to focus on school when I can't stop thinking about that. I miss being able to do the little everyday things that people get to do together. The boring, little things that people definitely take for granted. Going to lunch, running errands, being stuck in traffic, watching tv, holding hands, laughing at inside jokes. Just not really the same over the phone. Now, every time I get to see Jacob it seems like the end of my trip is looming over me as soon as I get there. I can't wait for the day when there is no "end" anymore. I know that because of what we are doing now, I will appreciate those days so much more. I know that what we have is worth working for, even if on days like today it feels like it will never get better. I am getting so nervous for boot camp. Now, it is barely over a month away. I'm trying really hard not to think about it and not worry, but I do. I can't help it. I know that we will make it through, and be stronger for it, but it does scare me knowing Jacob won't be just a phone call away. He is my best friend and my support system. Even if I'm having a rough day, all I have to do is pick up the phone and he'll be there to help me through. I'm scared to lose that, I don't want to feel alone.
I am so incredibly blessed to have found someone who understands me like Jacob does.